WITHOUT A HEART

 Love never had a fairy tale ending for me
So I gave up that dream
Love was never good to me
So I was never caught sleeping
Even when my heart was weak
I poisoned it with facts of the past

She became stone again

Rock solid, and upon this rock of bitterness did I build my existence

Hate was never fair to me

Bitterness eats so deep into other feelings it left me empty and invisible

Deep beneath the scum of depression

It's deep when you can only believe in rejection

I wasn't born this way

But deception has lead me astray

I wanna be love, but...

But what will it take

I had changed my look countless times to look pretty

But they say beauty lives inside my soul

Not my clothes

Not in my makeup, but my mindset

Exposed my cleavage and thighs...

Then he notice

He was, and I was drunk too

Overdose on his mind

Death on mine too

He touched my hand saying "I love you, save me!"

Shattered like a glass

Down went my defenses

He kissed deep, breaking my hate fences

Is... This... Love...

I can't breathe, this most be a near death experience

Off when my clothe with secrets neatly kept

Exposing my beauty and all pains preciously kept

I traded in my heart

For happy thighs and deep kisses

I traded in my hate

For a story half told

I traded in my bitterness

For a lie once more

He took my heart

And gave me more pain

He wasn't alone or dying

Just drunk and exploring

Love never had a fairy tale ending for me

So now am living without my heart

©Kyng David, All Rights Reserved, 2014